What door do you choose?

Hi everyone

I am writing this while the kids play happily around me(not sure how long that will last for) Easter/Term 1 school holidays here and will say I am missing the routine of school and what I need to do each day. But that is not what this blog post is about.

I found something on another blog that I follow and it left me wondering what I really think about me and how hard we are on ourselves as women.

I have the put the video here for you to have a look at:



So what do you think?

I personally would choose to walk away I could not choose any door as I do not see myself as beautiful or average I am not sure what I am to be honest. I have always been on the larger size and I have a pretty big butt, small waist. Yes think Kim Kardashian butt.

So whenever I lose weight I lose it from my waist first which make my butt look bigger oh the joys of life. And somehow I always lose motivation to continue as I do not have a friend to push me and personal training would be great but is too expensive for this stay at home mum.

I also have never been told I was beautiful so I guess I do not believe it, I know I should but I just don't......and here I am trying to teach my boys to compliment there partners when they get to that age and I am always telling them they are beautiful, strong and amazing and their mum does not believe it.....so great mum I am being to them and a hypocrite too. I have always had a low self esteem and that leads back to I guess being told that my butt was big or my double chin is huge and that was from family members...so here I am trying to build my children self esteem up while trying to also I guess build mine up as well.......we all know kids just say what they mean and do not think before the words come out.

So this is my latest profile pic on Facebook and I hate selfies....I have also booked myself in to have a professional photo session done and I really do not know why I did that....maybe I was having a moment as I look around I have no photos of me(except wedding picture, only a few in my house). Or maybe I wanted my boys to see me being brave.....I have no idea, again my self esteem issues kick in.

So what door would you choose?

Until next time

Bye xx

Brain fart and review on FSOG

Hi
I know it has been a while since I wrote not much has been happening really.
I have spent the time since I last wrote getting my boy ready for prep so have been busy and also just trying to be a good friend and wife.

This post has a strange name because I have some much circling in my brain I need to get it out and not sure if this will make a lot of sense.

So lets start with the fact my boys is in prep....wow he is getting big so quickly. the introduction to his new prep teacher has not be great but I am trying to go with the flow, but will tell you that for the past week everyday she has told me my son has a problem. first it was the fact he was ambidextrous which is great, next it was a speech problem(which by the way is fine, he often has members of public say to me how well he speaks) and then it was he is not crossing over the centre line which is due to his ambidextrous....so she would like to send him to maybe get some help in that(none of this was picked up in Kindergarten).....I will wait and see what I get on pick up today.

I have also been walking daily and keeping up with my exercise which I love, my little man and myself are enjoying the fresh air daily and we love feeding the ducks every morning, I am taking time out for me and it has made a me a happier person which is great for my hubby.....the kids are still testing my mind but the wine helps with that......well small glass is not going to hurt.

 So my week last week started great and went down hill very quickly....but then I remembered I was off to see Fifty Shades of Grey(FSOG) and my excitement level went up, I know people hate this book as they think it is about abuse and other things but these are generally people who have not read all the book....yes the 3 of them.....the writing is not brilliant but to get the whole picture you need to read all the them. Then feel free to judge the books and movie. Well my review of the movie is below so you can read it for yourself.(insert a picture of stars and director just because I love it)

FSOG review

Well what can I say about it........loved it.It was everything I thought it would be. Jamie and Dakota are prefect for the roles of Christian and Ana. If someone tells me they had no chemistry then not sure what they are watching...whoo hot stuff with them. The only thing that was wrong is it felt rushed a bit ( which you get with a lot of book/movie things) 20 for min would have been great....the ending was wow that's it...... Can not wait for the dvd and then FSOG Darker.....but if anyone want to see it I put my hand up to go again and again.

My favourite tv show Beauty and the Beast(BATB) has be renewed for a 4th season and we get season 3 starting on may so excited for that....

Well that is all that is going through my brain lately, off to put my little man down for naptime and so me time watching.......not sure yet.

Have a great week, until next time.

xx

First week of my 2015 Goals

Hi everyone

I hope you have all had a great week.

My week has been a little up and down and feeling a little emotional but has been good despite that.

 Had been busy as usual enjoying the school holidays with my boys. My oldest son has had a few days away with his grandparents which has been great and lovely and quiet....and I have not had to answer any questions which seem to be all he does lately and if I do not have the answers or tell him that I will get the answer for him then he reminds me if I forget. I love how he want to know things but he asks me things even sometimes I would not even think he understands.

I must admit when he returned after 2 days he asked a lot so he made up for the time that he was not with me but then the behaviour went a bit off the show and he has been quite rude and demanding which is a little hard to take but that is ok he did get a lot of one on one when he was away and now he has to put up with sharing and waiting until I am not too busy to get him what he wanted.

 I have started my plans for this year I am so happy about that. I have a note in the front of my diary that reminds me of my goals for this year and I plan to stick to them.

I went out for a great lunch yesterday with some wonderful ladies, we laughed, talked and shared secrets as well as a lovely glass of wine and a great long lunch which I miss so much after having the children.

We went to a lovely little restaurant in Sandy Bay. It had a great menu and great atmosphere. It was just so fantastic to get out without the kids and have some adult girly time. Now I just need to make a date for next months lunch somewhere just as nice......so any ladies want to join just let me know we are always looking for new friends and if you need to get away from the family for a few hours then you are welcome to join us.

This morning I also started to exercise more, have taken a photo of what I was pushing. I had the pram, boy in pram and my oldest son on the skateboard attached to the pram. .....so a good amount of weight I pushed for 30 min. The oldest son took some photos so he would not get too bored.

I am even going to do a yoga program I found for my iPad called fit star yoga when the boys have a sleep and rest it is free and guides you through the program will let you know how that goes.Then I might just sit in the sun and read a book for a while after I book my tickets to see "Fifty shades of grey".......that's important right...

Love this blog post on Fat Mum Slim today 15-ordinary-things-2015/ Have a look at it see what you think.

Well signing off as I am writing this while playing with the kids at the park. Have a great week.

Xx