Friendship part 2

Hi

Hope your weekend was good, I had 2 sick children so not fun for me but hopefully on mend now.

So today I lost a friend or she may not have been quite a friend yet....I really do not know.

So why am I feeling terrible about it.

Let me tell you a little about the friend I like to be. I am a straight shooter.....yes I am probably the person you hate or dislike. I do not mess around I talk openly and honestly and that is the way I like to spoken to in return.

I am my mother daughter I do not much around. Sometime I think it is a great thing and other times I wish I could hold back but it is not I my nature to do that......I guess I leant from a very young age that you need to be honest....maybe being an only child and having no children to chat too just adults did this I am not sure.

To be honest I really did not know her very well and what I understand she can change her mind every day with what she want to do.

Now I am going to let you in a secret when I was in high school I was bullied not at school but on the way home on the bus. I would always sit with a friend......at least I throughout she was a friend but I leant quickly maybe she was not.

Anyway back to being bullied. I would leave my bag under the chair and the girl would would bully me would pull my bag from under the chair and spit in my lunch box or down the side of my bag anywhere she thought I would put my hand. Is was horrible and I did not say a word I just sat there and took it....even my friend did not say anything.....and now thinking back to that now I guess she was worried it might happen to her so she keep quiet.

At night I cried and tried to clean my bag out before my mum saw it. In the end I moved to the front of the bus so she could not do it anymore.....but of course I felt alone and did not know what else to do....still make me cry today thinking about it.

I know how could a person like me be bullied but it show it can happen to anyone.....maybe that is why I now seem to be honest and a straight talker now. I really do not know.

So maybe I drove her away with my honesty, I will never know because she will not let anyone in or let anyone know how she is feeling.....

Ok enough of me going on about it....can not do anything now.i have a great bestie who is an amazing person and is a sister I never had. So I would do anything for her. So thank you and you know who you are.

Have a great week, back to my e-course now.

Elita

Xxx